Sex Challenge - Day One.

Was an epic FAIL! Lol.

The Hubbs worked late, the kids are refusing to go to bed, and I am exhausted!

I will try to "coax" The Hubbs into it later tonight, but so far the night is a bust. :(

Wish me luck for day two. ;)

Honesty post.

I hate trying to make new friends. I feel like I am in high school again, and I'm the new kid no one likes. It's hard getting over the initial introductions, and trying to remember their names. It's like all you have to talk about is your kids, and I love talking about my kids, but I want to talk about other stuff, too. I want to make mommy friends. Woman that are in the same stage of life, as I am. I want to have friends that I can go out with, and have a good time with away from my kids.

Lately I feel so isolated. I am tired of these four walls, and this house is like the never ending story of cleaning. I've been really depressed, and I hate it. What would it be like to have someone to vent to in person? I vent to The Hubbs all the time, but the poor guy needs a break every once, and a while. I've tried to pick up a few hobbies to help with the depression, but I don't have the motivation to keep them up. It's hard to be motivated by something that you are doing on your own.

The Hubbs is a full time graduate student, and he's barely ever home. The only adult conversation I get is though Facebook, and frankly that is little to say the least. When The Hubbs gets home, he is overloaded with information, and exhausted from his day. So, any conversation with him is kept to my day, his day, then it's off to bed. And the next day we do the. Same. Exact. Thing. It's an exhausting routine. I always feel like I'm overloading him with pointless stuff from my day.

Graduate school is like this huge loan, that takes forever to pay off, and the debt collectors won't leave you alone. You're always worried about the loan, and how you are going to get the money to pay it off. You're always stressed, you're always busy, and you basically live on campus. It's like that nightmare you have, where you are stuck at school, and you can never leave. The teachers are secretly monsters, and they don't care if your dog ate your homework. It's a never ending school day. And even when you get home, you are still doing school work. Family, food, relaxation, it's all a luxury that you can't have. I. Hate. Graduate School. You can tell me all you want that's it's worth it in the end, but right now it sucks, and I hate it.

I basically have no life outside of this house. I am always here, and I never get to leave. It's like a prison in which you have the keys to get out, but you're so used to it, that even if you did get out, you would have no idea how to function on the outside. It's terrible to feel this way, and I hope that eventually I can change the way I feel. But until then, I am going to keep working towards finding friends, and a way out of this hell.

Sex Challenge.

I've decided to participate in a challenge that babycenter.com and thestir@cafemom.com was doing. It's called the Sex for a week challenge. It's basically exactly what it says. For a full week I am taking on the challenge of having sex everyday with The Hubbs. This is supposed to increase intimacy and help build up your marriage. I am going to blog about it every day and NO I will not be putting details. Ha. More along the lines of our conversations and what it's improved in our relationship. I will be starting this on Monday the 28th.

The following is the conversation I had with The Hubbs asking him if we could do this. It didn't go over as well as I thought it would. Haha.

Me : So I want to do this sex challenge thing that I read about online in some of the blogs I follow today.

The Hubbs : Okay...

Me : We will need to have sex everyday for a full week. It'll help our intimacy and it'll be fun.

The Hubbs: Haha okay. Sounds good. When are we starting this?

Me : Next Monday and I am going to blog about it.

The Hubbs: What? Blog about it?

Me: Yeah, nothing person or anything will be on there. I promise.

The Hubbs: On your public blog?

Me: Yes. I won't put any nity gitty details.

The Hubbs: It probably isn't the best idea to put something like that on a public blog. Potential employers and universities often google applicants' names, and I don't want that the first thing on their results.

Me: I won't put your real name on it then.

The Hubbs: Okay, I guess that's fine then.

Haha. So after promising to not put his name on this, I got the okay. I am pretty excited to do this. I think it will be fun and different from the same old, same old. Any of you are welcome to participate in the challenge. This'll be fun! Wish me luck. ;)

Crunchy Mama!

So I've become a total freak about my kids toys, and I've found out that there are only a few sites that offer organic toys. I've been lucky, and I've been able to find some stuff off of Amazon. I got Briggs a truck, and a tool set for his birthday, that was completely made out of recycled milk jugs. I got Kyra organic, and BPA free teething toys. I am pretty freaking happy with myself, and how I am making my kidlets world a better place. I'm working on Andrew's stuff, but he isn't too keen on the those kinds toys. He wants spiderman, batman, and transformers toys. Sadly they don't make those kind of toys organic, or recycled. I'm going to gather all of the boys toys that they don't play with, and either freecycle them, or take them to the salvation army. I'm working on eventually having the majority of their toys more or less organic or BPA free.

I feel that this is a very important thing to have done in their lives. I am working extremely hard on getting all of the added junk in our lives out. We have switched most of the food we intake over to organic, and all natural. We recycle, and reuse a lot more of our stuff. And we have made a huge effort to change all of our dish ware to glass. I wished I would have done this years ago, but it's better to do it now instead of never. We are now a green family!! It's going to be awesome when family comes and visits. Ha.

I just wanted to share my excitement. I will try harder to blog more!

~N